Happy Father's Day

It has been 11 years...

I know some won't understand the feeling of losing someone so dear, someone you've been look up to your entire life.. someone who knows you best... someone who would be with you when you feeling down... someone who would right you when you wronged... someone who would cry with you when you shed tears ...

I envy those who still have their father... I envy the relationship they have... I envy how they can still laugh together, jokes together, play together and just sit and sip orange juice or eat pizza infront of television together.. or just laze around and talk... I ENVY YOU!

I remembered how my father would cook for us.. (he's a good cook by the way)... he would basically chased everyone in the kitchen out whenever he wanted to cook something... especially during examinations week... we are forbidden to enter the kitchen ... we are just to focused on our study and he'll do the cooking.... I missed that... I missed listening to the oldies being played in the kitchen and his singing and dancing in the kitchen while cooking...

I remembered how he would just glare at us if he is not satisfied or angry at what we're doing and we knew immediately... how everyword he said when he's angry its sliced like a knife thru our heart eventho its not harsh to others...

I remembered how he cried together with me when I'm sick .. how he would be by my side and nursed me to well... how he would cracked jokes just to make me laugh and feel better... I can still feel his warmness close thinking about all this...

I remembered how he would let us eat what we feel like eating and would go all the way to find it for us be it through the rain or sun... It breaks my heart thinking about it again...

Hence, I hate those who despises their parents! I hate those who being rude and impolite to their elders! YOU NEVER LOST SOMEONE DEAR! YOU CANT POSSIBLY KNOW THE FEELING!

Have you take the initiatives to tell your father that you love and care for him... Have you ever sincerely sit down and apologize for whatever you've done wrong? Have you ever just sit there and talk and open up to your father? Have you ever kiss your father daily .. greet him good morning and wish him good night? And all of the sudden ONE DAY ..HE WASN'T THERE ANYMORE!

APPRECIATE HIM WHILE HE IS AROUND....

To be sincere, after I lost my father... everything seems not that important anymore. I lost my best friend, my pillar of strength, part of me numb and dead... and at times I am like in denial still that he is no longer there... sometimes the image of him walking through the door just hit me... even though I know its impossible... But I just want to believe that he is still around...

Father,

You knew me better than I know myself...

You could read me like the back of your hand...

Thank you for being the most gentle, kind, loving father

that ones could ever have...

Thank you for making me for who I am today...

Most of all... Thank you and mom for giving me LIFE!...

I love you more than words can say....

BLESSED BE....

Regards