Sickness

What happen to me for the past few days?

U Guessed It Right!!!

Well after my trip to Sibu, Sarawak-- I fell awfully ill not because of Sibu but because me being a stubborn so called tough chick and braved through the rain!!!!! 3 days in a row I was caught in the rain and that is the main reason why.

So I ran a pretty high fever close to 40degree... Went to the hospital with my running nose and sore throat. Gosh how I hate being sick! People keep confirming it with me... 'Kay, You SIck?~?!?!?! "

well HellOooOo am I not human being enough to be sick? what am I a robot? machine? that I dont ever get sick? Sometimes its just frustrating to hear such things when you are sick! I dont normally ticked off when Im ok but at times people are not being sensitive to it...

AAAAAAAAAAACHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! ooh excuse me

So yeah I did go to the hospital at first.... and they wanted to admit me.. but I said no. I hate being in a hospital and I hate being a patient. That is because hmmmm well now im in KK sabah and I havent got many people around me except friends who are being considerate. I know if I call few of my best buddies they would fly over but i dont wanna be a burden! Its just some common sickness... not that I am close to dying...
Anyhow..

Yup... I got a jab!!!!! I hate needles. I dont mind sticking it into other people but people sticking the needles into me?!?!?!?! now thats a big issues!!!!

How I wish at times like this there's this hunk by my side hehe now I wouldnt mind at all ... I might wanna be sick for as long as he would be! *ehem* (touch wood) but just imagine it... next to your bed there's this hunk!!!!! am I wrong to be thinking so? DUH!!! I am just a human being.. so excuse me .... plus I am under the weather hehe... but irregardless of that my IMAGINATION can still runs wild!

When you are sick... you wanted your family to be around ... now as for me those people who are dear to my heart are so far away and that they surely have things to do of their own. I am so tempted to let them know but... Nevertheless as always Romeo and Allan rung me up. They always can sensed if I am in such difficulties.. thank you both... love you dearly.

Allan, thanks dear... for your kind thought and gentle words forever... he even contacted few of his friends here to call me up and check on me... hehe soooooooooooo sweet! *HUGS*

I wish my father is still around.... he would have stick closed to me and never leave my side and tells me that everything is going to be alright... at times like this you tend to be over sensitive and wanting to cry all the time. Precisely what Ive been doing for the past few days... cry .. cry and cry... *sighs*

many thoughts runs thru my mind... many things that I wanted tod o in the past... many things which I think I could have done better yet I just let it be... many people that I could care and love deeply but I just took them for granted... I think my heart turns cold already... I just wish upon wishes that one day someone came along and warm it up again and let me feel what greatest care would be like.

I MISS MY FATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FATHER, WHERE EVER YOU ARE... I WISH YOU ARE DOING WELL... I WISH YOU ARE HAPPY AND I WISH YOU REMEMBER ME ALWAYS... I LOVE YOU...

Dont ask me whats up with me.. its just the hyper sensitive part of me showing when im sooooooooooooooooo sick!!! ...

I shall be ok in a day or two hopefully and then I would read this again and wonder what the heck is going thru my head...