It has been awhile since the last I jot down something in the blog. I seem to lost track of why did I have a blog in the first place... then again... i remembered... due to many friends I have scattered all across the world wanting to know my updates...and I them..
Alrighty guys...
It has been 3 days that Ive been feeling all crappy, fatigue and malaise... not sure why but educated guess? would be "Indomethacin" ... it was prescribe to me by a Dr in KK Luyang the last I had my checkup. For some off reason, after consuming the meds my head did a 360degree spin each and every time and i lost my balance most of the time... increases my blood pressure! Scary like hell! Other than that I cant think of any....
First day I took it was on Monday late evening... Tuesday morning.. I feel like been beaten by thousand punches... wooziness and nausea... I brave myself to drive to the college... didnt want to miss out on my clinical.. the final week before the final examination... but sadly when i reached.. I can hardly see straight.. so had to rest for another two hours before I could even stand up properly... that too is not for long..
then as I reached home.. still in uniform ... i just landed flat on bed... for few hours and after that... a nightmare! tried to get up and get myself some drink from the kitchen when the first time in my entire life... I FAINTED!!!!
When I finally come to my senses it's already 10am the next day! How scary is that.... what if i stop breathing during the episode of me losing my consciousness? so many thoughts runs thru my mind...
And today as well.. early in the morning... Im still having dizziness and not able to get out of bed...
I didnt want to trouble friends to send me to the hospital cause I am so sure they are busy with many things in their life too.... definitely being in sabah and in KL two difference environment...
Many times when Im under the weather, the thought of just leave everything behind and head back to KL keeps surging... How I wish right now I am back in KL... I know if im there , anything happen to me there will always be someone close someone dear to rush to my aid!...
Missing so many people at the present moment.. that is why I hate being sick! I hate being helpless and I hate it when I have no where to turn to! I hate there's no one to watch over me during the period me not being well and I hate it the most a thing called LONELINESS....
But then again.. Im thankful too - for being alone teaches me many things.. who're your true friend and who are ur foe... Im thankful that being sick thought me how to maneuver things by myself and push myself to the limit... and Im thankful that this thing called LONELINESS makes me realize that Im still alive and im very much still intact with my feelings.
What can I say.. its scary... bitter-sweet, love-hate relationship between LONELINESS & INDEPENDENT
Regards
Kay
Alrighty guys...
It has been 3 days that Ive been feeling all crappy, fatigue and malaise... not sure why but educated guess? would be "Indomethacin" ... it was prescribe to me by a Dr in KK Luyang the last I had my checkup. For some off reason, after consuming the meds my head did a 360degree spin each and every time and i lost my balance most of the time... increases my blood pressure! Scary like hell! Other than that I cant think of any....
First day I took it was on Monday late evening... Tuesday morning.. I feel like been beaten by thousand punches... wooziness and nausea... I brave myself to drive to the college... didnt want to miss out on my clinical.. the final week before the final examination... but sadly when i reached.. I can hardly see straight.. so had to rest for another two hours before I could even stand up properly... that too is not for long..
then as I reached home.. still in uniform ... i just landed flat on bed... for few hours and after that... a nightmare! tried to get up and get myself some drink from the kitchen when the first time in my entire life... I FAINTED!!!!
When I finally come to my senses it's already 10am the next day! How scary is that.... what if i stop breathing during the episode of me losing my consciousness? so many thoughts runs thru my mind...
And today as well.. early in the morning... Im still having dizziness and not able to get out of bed...
I didnt want to trouble friends to send me to the hospital cause I am so sure they are busy with many things in their life too.... definitely being in sabah and in KL two difference environment...
Many times when Im under the weather, the thought of just leave everything behind and head back to KL keeps surging... How I wish right now I am back in KL... I know if im there , anything happen to me there will always be someone close someone dear to rush to my aid!...
Missing so many people at the present moment.. that is why I hate being sick! I hate being helpless and I hate it when I have no where to turn to! I hate there's no one to watch over me during the period me not being well and I hate it the most a thing called LONELINESS....
But then again.. Im thankful too - for being alone teaches me many things.. who're your true friend and who are ur foe... Im thankful that being sick thought me how to maneuver things by myself and push myself to the limit... and Im thankful that this thing called LONELINESS makes me realize that Im still alive and im very much still intact with my feelings.
What can I say.. its scary... bitter-sweet, love-hate relationship between LONELINESS & INDEPENDENT
Regards
Kay
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